Free At
Last
Well, Tommy
thinks as he finally comes around from a sleep that has consumed him for, well
honestly he isnt really sure, that was some night but,
hold on, where the hell am I?
It is only then he
realises, shit its happened again, shit hes almost died in the
pursuit of a good time and, yet again, hes gone and landed in a
nondescript hospital bed as the tubes running from his mouth and the huge pile
of equipment that is now beeping frantically suggest this time it was a bit
closer than usual.
Doctor!! Doctor!!
Its Room 13, Room 13!! he hears someone scream in the corridor and
almost instantly his room is a hive of activity.
Well Mr Meyer it sure
is good to see you back here in the land of the living, a man in a long
white coat says stepping forward from the crowd whove gathered.
But you must
understand that if you keep pumping that stuff into your veins youll be
back here again, do you get me Mr Meyer?
Ah dont call me
that, my dad is Mr Meyer, Im Tommy!
Well look Tommy
youve got to stop, youve just got too
you know this is the
third time in the last twelve months weve stepped in and saved
you
Tommy merely stares at the
floor but something in his mind is telling him the doctor is right for
once. He cant carry on like this, he cant carry on almost
killing himself every weekend just to have something to look forward to, he
just cant.
Youre right doc
but what can I do?
Well we can get you
set up with a detox program whichll take about a month and then once you
are clean, as far as we are concerned anyway, youll be returned to
society and we highly recommend you take up NA membership.
NA?
Yes Tommy they are
good people and they will help you but first of all youve got to help
yourself
OK doc, so how does
this work?
The next month passes in a
whirlwind of seizures, of cravings so bad they even surprise Tommy but
hes got to say some of the hallucinations are downright hysterical; the
dancing syringe being his own particular favourite, until finally the day comes
and he is a free man but almost immediately he is a man in demand.
Hey, you alright?
Im holding if youre needing reads the first message on his
smart-phone and he knows, he just knows, something has got to change. He
simply hits delete but he knows not all of them will be that simple and sure
enough, within seconds of leaving the facility his phone begins
ringing.
Hey man, where you
been? a familiar voice croaks down the phone and Tommy knows
immediately. He needs a meeting right now before it all falls apart
again.

All or
Nothing
Lizzie gazes at a
reflection she barely recognises in the dressing room mirror as her fingers go
through the routine that has, it seems almost overnight, become her new ritual,
her new way of preparing for, well, just about anything this sad god-damn
excuse of a life could throw at her. A ritual she is now so used to
undertaking it barely registers that she is getting ready to fix as she
descends into the living hell of her situation. The horror show of her
reflection means no amount of make-up or sexy underwear can cover her apparent
hideousness from the baying mob of perverts and creeps who make up the crowd at
this time of the week.
Youre on in 5
minutes Lizzie, a voice announces and she knows there is nothing for it
but to get higher than she can ever remember and just go for it. She
loads the pipe strong and immediately upon inhalation she can feel its utter
madness start to creep inside.
Tonight has to be her best
night, her best night in weeks, hell it could be months, it could even be years
since she pulled in the kind of money she needs to pay the damn rat-bastard of
a dealer; to keep the supply coming as her demand rises. Tonight
shes got to really show herself and, if she believed in such a thing
shed get down on her knees and pray to God but, hey, that just aint
ever going to happen, not in this lifetime anyway, so there is nothing but the
hope she can pry some thin guy with a fat wallet to pay for some private
time. And sure enough, soon into her routine she spies one, an innocent,
hanging at the bar desperately trying to look tough with a wallet so fat it
could last her days and as she moves on in she knows. Within an hour she
will grind him so hard the only evidence available will be a deranged smile, a
pile of droll and an empty wallet but tonight, well tonight Lizzie is at last
happy she walks out with it all

Never Trust Your
Lust
Jack is out walking, trying
his very best to simply mind his own business but as soon as he sees her he
knows, he just knows, only trouble can lay ahead. As she approaches him
his eyes devour her very soul, drowning deep in the depths of her sexy summer
dress and desperate to see just what lays underneath.
He immediately knows
hes got to do something, anything, to get her attention and almost as
quickly he spies a supermarket convenience store opposite and a sudden plan of
capturing this beautiful heart leaps to the front of his mind. He runs
across the street stopping traffic on his way and he knows immediately.
He spies a bucketful of flowers propped up by the front door and running he
simply grabs a handful of bunches and carries right on in until he is prone at
her feet.
Please, he says
his eyes locking with hers, I
I
Ive got to know
you! he begs but as she walks on without a care in the world Jack feels a
great big hole open up beneath him.
So, he thinks
sinking into despair, this must be hell