Making
Distance
Of course, I
should have
backed-away,
made
distance,
I didnt,
she died young
of
narcotics, of
violence,
betrayal,
regrets, of a
savage
harshness
that too many of
us
know of:
she was
strong,
even when
she
knew death
was
on her
shoulders:
our
interaction
although
brief,
is still
here,
particularly,
that time when
we
kissed and
embraced
and then,
suddenly,
let go,
making that
distance,
as we should
have done,
knowing
then,
we had
broken all
the rules.
Stay
The Night
You might
as well stay the night,
I mean, its
2am she said: we were
sat in our
underwear, in her place
drinking wine: I
was of a slim
build and she
was of a very large
build and I was
hooked on her
huge breasts:
Yeah, thank you
I said, not
knowing her name:
she slid off her
bra and began
to caress her
breasts and when
I reached
forward, she slapped
my hands away:
Take off your
boxer
shorts she demanded: I
did, as she
moved in and I slid my
excitement
between her
breasts as she
masturbated:
later we drank
wine and we
both passed-out
and that was
it: I awoke
around 6am, still
intoxicated and
disappeared
like a fucking
tooth-fairy.
Finding
Out
I
cant take you to work in that state
said my work
colleague: I swayed upon my,
feet, dressed in
soiled clothing,
unwashed,
unshaven. following
3 days of Brandy
and Cocaine and
Hash:
I awoke to two
paramedics
looking down at
me as I lay on
the floor of my
mothers lounge:
Have you
taken any drugs?
I was asked:
Havent you?
I replied
Do you
need or want any
medical
assistance?
No I
said
Good
luck one of them
said and they
went away
and I passed
out: 2 days later
I awoke, sick,
hungry, thirsty
and filthy in my
own place:
I dragged my
sorry ass into the
shower for 30
minutes, then I
drank a cold
beer and
wondered where
it had all
started to go
wrong and I
knew that
Id have to go
back a fucking
long way
to find that
out.
Susies
Story
Susie was a
sexual
pass-the
parcel,
Bob liked to
think
of himself as
her
protector and
pimp:
Karl loved her
and
wanted to marry
her:
Bob fed her
drugs
took
monetary
bookings from
creeps to
satisfy
their warped
perversions:
Karl was
always
close by, at
times
witnessing
the
abuse:
Bob vanished
when
the police
became
interested:
Karl
committed
suicide
and Susie
became
hollow, see-
through, she
became
mute,
but,
but, her
eyes,
even Diablo
dare not
look
into those.
Abandoned
I was born
hanging onto
the edges of
the horizon,
the
twilight,
thrown into
the
wilds of
alcoholism
and the
howls
of a
literary
forest,
abandoned
in the
alleys
and palaces
of
love
and
war
and it was
here
I stole
the secrets
of a new
morning,
knowing it
was never
going to
make it.